Ok so I didn’t know whether to post this so please skip past if you want.
TW: mentions numbers.
I just found the photo on the left which was 5 years ago literally a couple of months before everything started and I remember I was on holiday and suffering really badly form anxiety and panic attacks and even though that is also when my eating went wrong I never hated the way I looked and was happy. Only as I started to loose weight did I become obsessed with how I looked and felt. And know looking at the result which is on the right taken the other day (3.5kg) higher than my lowest… I hate the way I look! I just need to convince my self and carry on fighting to become there person I was before because I was so much happier, full of life and even though I struggled really bad with panic attacks I spent the last 2 years in school on a part time timetable as I walked out of all of my classes through panic I managed to smile and have a good time.
I want that again.
sophie-melissa asked: yes jess you are definitely included in my 'to draw' list ;) xx
Yay! Posting this because I’m excited :) xx
Why can’t we have thanksgiving in England ! :( xx
Made dark chocolate chip & stem ginger cookies the other day :)
Sorry if not been posting again I’m really trying to increase my food and feel pretty guilty right now as I still can’t justify having to eat it so I’ve just been keeping myself to myself :)
Hopefully ill do it this time as I’ve had enough now I just wish I could see that I needed it !!
Hope your all ok xx love jess